Side Story - Side Healer II
On that day, I──Kyunei──was in a good mood.
As I worked as a town doctor during the day, many patients who came to visit asked me, "Did something good happen?" It seems that my good mood was clearly written on my face.
Ever since I went on a "date" with Yukina-kun the other day, it has been like this.
At that time, I got overwhelmed by his words and impulsively threw myself into his arms. Looking back now, I feel embarrassed, but at the same time, warm feelings remain in my heart.
Although it was "necessary", I had sold my own body. I had to do it. But deep down in my heart, I felt a sense of guilt about myself.
──Being a pr**titute is the worst job a woman can have.
──My body is the dirtiest in this world.
──I probably won't die in a proper way.
Although I usually pretended not to care, such thoughts were always floating in the back of my mind. I ran the town doctor's office because I wanted to convince myself that I was living a decent life.
──I think being a pr**titute is an honorable profession.
But then, Yukina-kun agreed.
He recognized me as a pr**titute.
──There are people who can do their best because there are pr**titutes.
In the eyes of the world, being a pr**titute is a profession to be despised.
But it was different.
I was only looking at myself. I wasn't thinking about the people who were looking for pr**titutes.
We have the power to inspire men.
We work hard to "sell" ourselves, and then men find fulfillment in both heart and body by embracing us.
Being a pr**titute is a job of selling oneself. It's definitely a difficult profession to be accepted by society. But that's why we can comfort men.
Perhaps Yukina-kun doesn't think deeply about it.
He just honestly speaks his mind. He simply voiced his own feelings.
Even so, his words changed my 'world'.
I learned that I don't need to be ashamed of myself.
"Hehehe...♪"
I found myself humming again.
Even though there are no patients at the moment, I am in the middle of preparing medicine. I need to concentrate. But I couldn't stop my cheeks from relaxing even if I stopped humming.
I had become able to accept myself as a pr**titute, but at the same time, I found myself facing two new problems.
There are two things that bother me. The first is that Yukina-kun's face always pops into my mind. Because of this, I always feel restless.
That's still okay.
The problem is the second one.
My restlessness has become overwhelming── to the point that my body starts to crave Yukina-kun.
And because of that, I find myself not wanting to be with anyone else but Yukina-kun.
"Sigh... I guess I'm really just a naive young girl being swept away by her first love."
Although I might be a bit aggressive for a young girl, considering that I'm a well-known pr**titute in the royal capital, it's quite inappropriate to think that way.
But... I can't say I don't understand.
I've been selling my body, but I've never sold my heart. It has always been just a job for me, making sure to satisfy the clients. That's all.
Honestly, I've hardly ever had the experience of truly desiring someone── a man.
Luckily, I don't have to work nights for a while. However, I cannot stay like this forever. As time passes, the time will come when I will absolutely have to work as a pr**titute.
In that case, I would like that person who recognized me to embrace me physically, even mentally. That feeling is getting stronger day by day.
Even though I think so, when I imagine my relationship with him, my face turns red. As a pr**titute who has had relationships with many men, my shame overflows when I imagine a relationship with him.
In fact, my face is turning red right now.
"Oh, no, no. If I think about it any more, I won't be able to bear it anymore."
I shake my head to clear the pink tinted thoughts.
The trouble is, even though I feel embarrassed, there is a part of me that definitely wants that. I suddenly find myself thinking about when I'll be able to meet Yukina-kun next.
Yukina-kun is working as a mercenary, and he's saving up money from the rewards of his missions to "buy" me.
I wonder which will come first, him saving up the money or reaching my limit.
Sometimes, I can't help but think that it wouldn't be so bad to be with him without the status of a pr**titute.
But that clashes a bit with the pride I've built up from working as a pr**titute.
In fact, when I first met Yukina-kun, I said something like, "It wouldn't be fair to the customers who have spent money on me if I just let you have me for free."
I can't just pretend that I didn't say those words now. If I did something like that, I feel like it would be wrong as a person, as a woman. Yukina-kun probably wouldn't want someone who changes their words so easily.
Or maybe, if there's something that can just blow away the words I've said without any argument...
"──There can't possibly be a convenient story."
I slumped my shoulders with a sigh.
At that time, I had no idea that "something" was so close at hand.
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