Chapter 195 Rebecca's Lecture
After breakfast, Sara received a massive scolding from Rebecca.
"Ms. Sara, you've been going overboard since yesterday. Don't you have any self-awareness?"
"Yes..."
"I knew it was pointless to hide your abilities from Ed and the others. I knew you couldn't keep it hidden forever."
"Yes..."
"But there's a limit to everything. Causing a bloody mess like that, was all the ladylike education you received up until now for nothing? The other party wasn't some thug, you know?"
"I'm sorry..."
With a guilty conscience, Sara couldn't say anything back and hung her head in shame. Rebecca bent down, matching her gaze to Sara's level, and peered into her face.
"They insulted your parents first, so I understand how you feel. But you need to be aware that you have incredible power. Controlling your emotions is the same as controlling your magic. Losing control of your actions to anger is like a magician who can't control their magic."
Even after giving Sara a lecture, Rebecca didn't have confidence that she could stop Sara's outbursts. If Sara could control herself, she wouldn't be called a loose cannon.
"I wonder how we can protect Ms. Sara... If we only look at your strength, it might seem like we're trying to 'protect' you out of pity, but as a mother, I'm worried. Rob is worried as a father too."
Sara was gradually understanding something. That was, even though she had the memories of her past life (Sarasa) and was an 8-year-old girl who couldn't control her childish heart, which was possessed by the current "her". Even though she remembered her past life, she didn't just gain knowledge, but also a more mature personality. However, that didn't mean she became an adult.
Despite having a severely unbalanced and unstable heart, Sara possessed extraordinary strength. Moreover, she had the knowledge to wield that power.
"Mother, I need to train myself to control my heart, don't I?"
"It might be tough, but if you have the power, you need to learn how to control it."
'I'm like a dictator holding the switch to my core. And there's no one who can stop me.'
At that moment, Sara felt scared of herself for the first time.
"But, I don't want you to lose your identity either. It's strange, isn't it?"
"Well, people might always carry contradictions within themselves."
Rebecca smiled at Sara like a young boy. Her expression was not ladylike at all, but Sara thought it was very Rebecca-like.
"So, it's not like I want you to become an adult, Ms. Sara."
"I lived until I was 33 years old in my past life, but even then, I didn't think of myself as an adult. What does it even mean to be an adult? As you get older, people recognize you as an adult, and when you start working, you're expected to take responsibility, so I acted like an adult. But I felt like I was always playing the role of an 'adult creature'."
Rebecca gazed at Sara with great interest.
"I even thought that, Ms. Sara."
"When I was a kid, I thought adults were amazing. But when I actually became that age, I realized I wasn't the cool adult I imagined myself to be, and it was disappointing."
"Ah, I understand that."
"But the people around me treat me like an adult, so I think I have to adapt to that."
"Hehe, I still think I'm the same as when people called me Little Prince. Even if I act like a lady, it's still the same."
"But now it's the opposite. If the hunting tournament starts, I'll probably be expected to behave like a normal kid. That's what they call 'social skills', right?"
Rebecca let out a deep sigh and looked at Sara with sympathetic eyes.
"I think I understand that the noble society isn't a good fit for Ms. Sara."
"Thank you."
"So let me be frank with you. In noble society, it's not rare to find children who mature quickly. You're not an exception, Ms. Sara, but there are many kids who are more adult-like."
"That's true, isn't it?"
"It's a society where many kids get caught up in adult politics, and of course, there are also kids who are spoiled and unreasonable."
"It's a terrible society, isn't it?"
"That's undeniable."
Rebecca looked at Sara with serious eyes.
"So, you don't have to try too hard to be a kid or pretend to be an adult. You can just be yourself, and that's okay. But I want you to have a little more room in your heart. You have a very strong weapon, and I believe you can do it, Ms. Sara. Just be a little kinder to those around you, okay?"
"...Yes. Okay, Mother. I'll try."
Rebecca stood up and gazed out the window at the Aklar Mountains.
"The Hunting Tournament is just around the corner. From tomorrow, many nobles and their servants will be arriving at this castle. Even the Crown Prince of Roisen and the Prince of Avalon will be here."
"Yes."
"I used to worry about how to make you seem like an ordinary lady, but I've given up on that."
"Is that so?"
"Even if you didn't have memories of your past life, with the blood of Grandchester and your beautiful appearance, you'd still stand out no matter what."
"That's how far it goes?"
"Beauty is a weapon to the nobles. If you want to form an alliance with a powerful family, having a beautiful appearance is advantageous. Of course, the bloodline and appearance of the mother who will give birth to the next generation are highly valued."
"Don't talk about it like we're breeding livestock."
"It's similar, though."
"I see..."
Rebecca, who had been looking outside, turned to face Sara.
"I talked to Rob, and I don't think you can hide your abilities, Ms. Sara."
"I'll try to hide them as much as possible."
"But you haven't been able to do so until now, and it'll probably be difficult from now on too."
"I apologize."
"Oh well, I've decided to just accept that you're reckless by nature. It's hard to control, and besides, product development is fun, right?"
"I can't deny that."
"Then, from the start, I thought it would be better to show off that you're a special existence, different from other ordinary ladies."
"Are you saying I should just be open about it?"
"Of course, there are parts that should be shown off and parts that shouldn't. But if we appeal to the fact that Ms. Sara is a special existence, even if we receive marriage proposals, we can easily decline them by saying that Ms. Sara is necessary for the development of Grandchester's territory."
"But there might be pressure from the royal family and powerful nobles."
"I'm sure Marquis Grandchester, no, the entire Grandchester family will protect you with all their might. They understand Ms. Sara's value, after all."
Rebecca gave Sara a radiant smile. In that instant, Sara understood the meaning behind Rebecca's smile.
'I see. So if they put pressure on us, we can just buy them off with money. If we use military power, it would be treason, but if we just use economic pressure, it wouldn't be illegal. And besides, the Grandchester family will support us with all their might, right?'
Sara felt a shiver run down her spine, but she couldn't help but feel excited.
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