Chapter 83 The Disappointing Hero Graduates From Virginity
Kyoko-chan asked me to come to her house. It's a special invitation from a girl to me. But, I said no with a sad feeling. Even though I know it won't happen, I still wish for a "miracle," that's me (a virgin). But now, it's not the time to make a mistake with Kyoko-chan.
Because, the goddess's condition is to "help me graduate." What if I already graduated before? It might not count.
I'm just looking for "possibility."
Messing up with Kyoko-chan → Losing the way to the goddess.
Giving my virginity to the goddess first → Doesn't mean Kyoko-chan can't be my girlfriend.
Hmm, a very logical decision.
This is the thinking of someone who achieved the highest difficulty.
But, I know this is just a result of the silly daydreams of a virgin. There's not even a tiny bit of a reason for Kyoko-chan to like me.
If a friend who is a girl asked, "What do you think about a guy who takes pictures of underwear when you first meet him?" everyone would say, "Stay away from him." I would say the same.
Now, more importantly, the special search for the Crack God using Nick is ending today! Hehehe, if the goddess make me do the search again, well, it'll be soon, very soon.
The difficult part of the Crack God search was having to choose a method. Suppose you find and kill the Crack God itself. However, if my information becomes known in the returnees' community, life will become troublesome later.
Actually, Kurusu-kun and Hana-chan already know about me. If it becomes 'unnecessary to choose a method,' the efficiency will change completely.
I don't know what methods I used during Nick's loop. I intentionally avoided thinking about it in advance. However, for example, if I share my information with each organization and counterattack, or if I eliminate suspicious people one by one, or even if I destroy the world, there are countless methods if anything goes.
Nick's reason for not using the "Return by Death" lies there. He doesn't want to remember the terrible things I did. He wanted to have a pure heart.
Anyway, the password was a combination of random numbers from 1 to 100 and letters from A to Z. Some of them were nice and round numbers like 20, 30, and 40, while others increased by 15 to 19.
In the case of the password 'S.75.16.K.38.P', it represents 'affiliated organization, initials, age group, gender, approximate height'.
SACA, initials L.C, 20s, male, about 180cm tall. So, the opponent was someone named 'SACA Logan Cooper', who is a 28-year-old male and approximately 185cm tall. If we narrow it down this much, it becomes easier to find the person.
'Not returning' was my backup plan in case I was attacked, but it seems that didn't happen in the end, just as I expected.
The reason I didn't directly provide the information about the Crack God is to make Nick think about the meaning of the password. By giving him cryptic information, he would try to figure out a way from there. I wanted to guide his thinking in that direction as much as possible.
I wanted to create a noise that would make it difficult for Nick to reach my idea of "I'm looking for something, and every time I want to pretend it never happened."
This time, it's especially crucial to act as if it never happened each time. Nick probably realized that I am searching for something. However, it seemed that there were circumstances, and he wanted to act as if it never happened each time, so I didn't want him to dwell on it too deeply.
If my intentions were exposed, it would give him an opportunity to exploit the situation. If I were in Nick's position, I would have threatened him with "I will record everything randomly!" when saying the password. Of course, there is a possibility of getting stuck in an endless cycle and reaching a dead end, but there is no room for negotiation without showing the determination to not let things go as he wants. In reality, if there was a suggestion that it might not be possible to act as if it never happened each time, I would have had to think of something too.
Well, maybe he had reached that point, but Nick couldn't step into it. He couldn't choose to change the situation - maybe he did something during the cycle - and ultimately chose stagnation. That is nothing but following my intentions. That's why he lost something important.
If he gives in to someone's threats, it's a common example of being continuously taken advantage of.
Anyway, the four Crack Gods were quickly disposed of using a combo of visual inspection, summoning, and killing based on the information obtained from the password. It was an easy task.
Well, the Crack God's four bodies have already been taken care of in this way.
Now, it's time for the victorious celebration of virginity graduation!
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Crunch, crunch, crunch, crunch, crunch, crunch.
After coming back home, Flora was lying on the couch, eating senbei (rice crackers) while watching TV.
"Oh, Tadayuki, welcome back!"
"...Um, aren't you getting too familiar with my place?"
"Oh, really? *chew* *chew* *chew* *chew*."
"Don't talk with your mouth full... well, never mind! Look! I finished the mission to exterminate the Crack Gods!"
"Good job. Well then..."
Flora put the half-eaten rice cracker back on the plate, licked the crumbs off her fingers, and stood up smoothly. She placed her arms on my shoulders, wrapped her hands around the back of my neck. With a smile on her face up close, she whispered while looking directly into my eyes with a slight upward gaze.
"Can we start now? Are you ready?"
"Oh, yes."
I thought there was something hidden. Well, I still think so.
"Okay, let's begin. First of all... I think this look suits me."
Flora made a popping sound and was covered in smoke. She turned into Misa-chan's appearance. She leaned in and said,
"Tadayuki, are you really okay with me? You won't regret it, right? To embrace me as a reward for defeating the god... Is that alright?"
Misa-chan's voice and appearance. But her tone remained that of a goddess. She gave me a penetrating gaze.
"...Isn't that unfair of you?"
"Why? Is there something bothering you?"
I put my hand behind her neck and untied the goddess's ribbon. Then I sat on the sofa, and the goddess sat next to me. She placed her hand on my knee and asked,
"Why do you suppress your own feelings?"
"...I don't intend to do that."
"Don't deny it. When you finished things with your ex-wife and came back here, you must have felt something towards Misa, some kind of affection."
Yeah, I definitely felt that. But...
"Maybe it's a misunderstanding? Everything's over, I realized I was hurt, and maybe I had an illusion because I was treated kindly at that time."
"Yeah, maybe. But..."
The goddess put her finger on my chest. I remembered that Kyoko-chan had done the same thing to me a little while ago.
"Do you really need to make sure? Are you afraid to step in? Is that different from that man? Are you choosing stagnation? If you let things stand still without moving, you might lose something important. You, who knows that better than anyone else, are you choosing that?"
Oh, I see. Despite looking down on Nick, it seems like nothing has changed. I give up.
"Aren't you being tough on me? Even after clearing the game, aren't you demanding too much?"
"It can't be helped. I am a trial and a mysterious goddess. Facing your own feelings squarely, that's also a splendid trial, isn't it?"
Flora removed her finger, stood up from the sofa, and changed back into her original goddess form. Then, she bent down to emphasize her chest and leaned towards me.
"Are you worried? I won't break my promise."
"Really?"
"Yes. Once you figure out your feelings, if you still like Misa or maybe another girl, well, if you get rejected... I'll be your first."
She laughs, her chest moving. Even if I get rejected, there's a backup plan. It feels like I'm being guided, but...
"Okay, got it. So first... I need to figure things out."
What do I feel for Misa-chan? Was I just happy to be treated nicely, or is it something more?
"Yes, but..."
The goddess leans closer and kisses my cheek.
"Because you did your best, for now... okay?"
"Yeah."
"Well then, I'll go back for now. I'll be excited for your rejection. Because I want to be your first."
"Don't lie."
"Yeah, it's a big lie."
"Hey."
The goddess smiles, looking at me kindly.
"Still, I hope you will be happy and not feel bad. You are the person who finished my game."
"..."
"Okay then, I hope nothing bad happens."
With that, she made a cloud of smoke and vanished when it disappeared. Alone in the room, I thought about our recent talk.
So, the goddess probably came not just to beat the Crack God, but also to push me forward. Is it part of the reward for finishing the game? Well, I don't really know the true reason.
But I have to deal with my own feelings...
I considered different ways to do that, but for now, I decided to visit my neighbor.
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